d_demandasaurus

I met Aatmarama on a quiet stretch of beach, where the sea was patient to us all. While we struggled with surfboards and waves, he came and lay beside me a stray, perhaps, or perhaps simply free. At some point he rested his head on my arms and slept, as if trust were the most ordinary thing in the world. When we began to leave, I told him not to follow. But he did. Again. And again. I remember thinking then that affection was permission. That if someone chose your company, you could choose for them in return. So I lifted him and took him with me to my shelter, believing I was doing something kind. But kindness that assumes is often just another form of arrogance. My shelter was not safe for him. Something went wrong. He was hurt. Scars where there should have been none. And the anger came quietly,  sharp, deserved, and unforgiving. “You were trusted.” “You were family.” “You should have known better.” The words were not loud because of rage alone; they were loud because disapp...

It always starts the same Calendar creeps up Friendship Day The day everyone posts filters and friendship bands Inside jokes and perfect group shots Tagging the world Except me And I tell myself I knew I always knew this day was coming And yet it still sucker punches my ribs like those "harmless jokes" they made in law school the ones that drew laughs from crowds and bruises I couldn't explain They applauded my pain called it banter And I stayed like a fool Because passion had a price And I paid it in silence and sarcasm We made a club once remember Built on dreams sweat And a stupid little fire I carried like it could warm us all Till they told me "Leave" Because it was easier ofcourse it was a easy shutter  But I digress I've got a tectonic friend now she shifts the earth for others shares, seeks and askholes  with me And I’ve helped Hell I've listened But I never do the opposite  Because I don't want another me  Then there’s the new one The maybe ...